The rest is still unwritten..

I’ve been SO good for a whole year… I haven’t tried to call you, or see you.. nothing. I’ve been moving on with my life..seeing other guys, and I even let it go when you told me you had a girlfriend.. usually I freak out on girls for talking to you. Whyyyyy did we have to go to mediation? and why for the first time in a year did I have to sit in a room with you for 2 hours, and WHY did YOU have to text me after saying you loved me, and missed me and wanted to see me… broke up with your girlfriend to get back together. and the next day say you want to work things out with her. and stupid me, I don’t learn my lesson…I let it happen again 3 days later. This hurts, and I really hate you. But i want our family to be together… Why do you keep coming back to me and then going back to some stupid girl. Whats more important? A high school senior, or your baby’s mom and your family with me…? I was doing so good with my life without you and now i’m back to that constant sick to my stomach feeling, always worrying and feeling like I misplaced something… I don’t like this :(

<3

We’ve got some straightening out to do..

and i’m gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket. but I’ve gotta get a move on with my life.

It’s time to be a big girl now….. and big girls don’t cry… :/ 

sooo much… I don’t even need a boyfriend ever again now..

Yesss! Taking it out to the beach whhhhat! Work at 10am..ftww!!!!!

that I was a wrestler. a Mexican wrestler, in a red vinyl mask. and I might grab you, and body slam you…. and maybe cause, physical harm. But when we would land, I might take pity on you. I can crack all your ribs…but I can’t break your heart.